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Armed with a bachelor's degree in psychology and a master's in early childhood education, Arlene
Weiler began teaching in Georgia.
She later returned to Milwaukee area to teach kindergarten in the Cudahy school
system.
One of the first members of the National Teacher Corps, Ms. Weiler is proud of what she has
accomplished as a teacher.
Outgoing and personable at 50, Ms. Weiler describes herself as having been a "perpetual student.
I used to be a sponge when it
came to learning... life has so many wonders to explore," she says. Her enthusiasm for teaching is evident as she remembers her
two decades in Kindergarten classrooms.
"The children were scientists and explorers, and I was their environmental engineer and research
assistant," she said.
"We had a framework of daily activities, stories, songs and games in reading, math and
science.
We learned that it can be lots of fun to eat your way through the alphabet and counting Cheerios
and M&Ms.
"Because I know how important the kindergarten years are to building a foundation, I did
everything I could to make myself a better teacher,
" Ms. Weiler continued. "My forte is creativity, but I took a lot of courses in science, nature,
history, geography, and many other
things-anything else to keep up with the kids' interests."
A model teacher, perhaps, but Ms. Weiler no longer spends her days spinning creative tales and
lighting the fires of learning for her
wide-eyed youngsters.
"For some years, teaching became more difficult and demanding of my time," she said. "It became
increasingly difficult to pick up the pieces and
get things ready for a new year in what seemed to be a shorter and shorter summer
vacation."
Her problems increased when her school involuntarily transferred her to teach the second
grade.
"The second grade wasn't my field of expertise," she said. "When the transfer order came, I lost the whole shooting
mach.
"I loved being a kindergarten teacher. I was allowed to be creative because kindergarten is a bit
'mysterious,' and most administrators don't
understand it and leave you alone. Second grade is different because it is so highly structured.
Well, I just couldn't do it.
I couldn't get organized. I did my best, but I was in a catatonic state by the Christmas
holidays. I had to quit work and begin therapy."
Ms. Weiler reflected on her slide into deep depression.
"I made the mistake of investing my life in my profession and trying to satisfy the needs of
others," she said. "Instead of taking an
objective to look at a profession that came before more difficult and more demanding each year, I
tried to live up to all the expectations.
I attempted to live up to the demands of the children, their parents, and the
administration until there was nothing left of me."
She added, "I feel like an artist who has worked with every ounce of her energy to create a
masterpiece just to see the effort of a lifetime
demolished. My depression culminated one day at home while I was doing the dishes. For some
reason, I suddenly started crying.
I was a sad and mournful little girl wailing for her mother."
Adding to, or perhaps as a result of, the depression, Ms. Weiler developed several
sub-personalities.
She describes one as a "two year old tank commander who pushes everyone around."Another is an
"eight year old who is r
esponsible and loving." Reluctant to talk in detail about her depression, she does say "I'm not
sure how many personalities are
involved; they're not distinctive. They are persistent, but not consistent."
Despite intensive therapy, Ms. Weiler found herself unable to function. Battling her depression
was painful enough, but when
she applied for Social Security disability benefits, Ms. Weiler waged a war on two
fronts.
"I bared my soul to Social Security on my initial application. With my depression, it was sheer
agony to fill out all those confusing forms,
" she said. Her discouragement quickly turned to bitterness when SSA denied her
application.
"I was ready to quit," Ms. Weiler continued. "Even when my insurance company referred me to you,
I didn't want to
pursue my claim. I just didn't feel I could cope with this ordeal again. I didn't believe anyone
could help me."
Later, Ms. Weiler appointed Karen Tretter, our claims consultant, as her
representative.
"I was very apprehensive," she said.
"I've never needed help before. I've been a helper all my life, but no one has ever helped me
before.
Why should I believe a complete stranger would enter my life just to help me with this
problem?"
When Ms. Tretter accepted the case, she began what eventually became a lengthy and complex
appeals process.
SSA denied her initial application. When Ms. Tretter filed for reconsideration, it was again
denied. When the administrative law judge
denied the appeal at the hearing level, Ms. Tretter forwarded it to the Appeals Council. The
Appeals Council remanded the case
back to the ALJ, who again issued a denial.
Following customary procedures, Ms. Tretter refused to stop pursuing what she thought was a
legitimate depression disability.
She again asked the Appeals Council to review the case.
The Council did so, and remanded the case to a different ALJ. Finally, an administrative law
judge in Milwaukee approved
Ms. Weiler for full disability benefits for her depression.
"This case took longer to decide than most because of the lengthy dispute between the Appeals
Council and the ALJ,"
Ms. Tretter said. "I knew from the outset it wasn't going to be easy because of the
complexity.
"Depression disability is always difficult to determine. The fact that Ms. Weiler is well
educated and obviously intelligent
made it an even more difficult decision.
"The ALJ who eventually awarded the claim took the time to be fully prepared," Ms. Tretter
continued.
"The judge had a knowledgeable psychologist on hand at the hearing, and he went out of his way to
examine every angle on all the issues."
Ms. Weiler's initial doubt about a "stranger" being able to help her was replaced with
gratitude and admiration.
"Karen did a super job!" she said. "It was as if the Social Security Administration dumped 10
tons of gravel on me, and Karen dug me out,
brushed me off, and said she'd take care of me."
At first bitter about the application ordeal, Ms. Weiler is now grateful.
"Thank God for an America that allows a company like Allsup to exist. Some people think the
American system doesn't work,
but I'm here to tell you it does."
Today, Ms. Weiler continues her depression therapy. She looks forward to someday returning to
work, but she knows
much progress must be made before she'll be able to do so.
Arlene Weiler's name has been changed to protect her identity.
To receive: Preliminary Evaluation for Disability
Benefits
To return to: Our Nationwide Disability Office
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